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This is how it feels...

The best way I can describe what my spirit feels is through the song, Worn by Tenth Avenue North, I've been in a similar feeling in the past but right now it just feels overwhelming. Here's a glimpse of the lyrics:

"I'm tired I'm worn, my heart is heavy, from the work it takes to keep on breathing."

Never did I think I would experience this again and it's not something I missed. I feel literal pain in my chest and a feeling of crying out to God. I know God is still good and He is still faithful. God has done so much in my life that there's no way I could deny that He exists nor can I be angry at Him. The actions of other have pushed me to be here but I'm praying to God for strength to get out of it, I don't want to place the blame on anybody because I know with God I can overcome this. One thing that I do know though, is that this is going to be a painful journey to overcome, yet God is still good and He is still faithful.

Keeping my focus on Him and eventually He will mend my heart.
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