A Glimpse of Lin

How can I feel so alone, Being surrounded by all these church folk. They tell me to leave everything in the hands of God, And I’ve tried but I keep getting ran over by my thoughts. It’s not that I feel worthless or that I’m not good enough, It’s not even the fact that life has been rough. But it’s a feeling that I can’t even comprehend, Like an emptiness that doesn’t want to come to an end. No, I’m not in a dark place, I still believe and have my faith, I still pray and read my Bible every day, But something in my life just went away. Is this what it feels like to be depressed? To be surrounded by loved ones yet still have an emptiness? Is this God showing me what those around me feel? If that’s so, I wish it wasn’t real. A common question we ask anybody we see is “how are you doing?” And the easiest answer to give is saying “I’m doing good” But how true is that answer that we give? Or would you rather not say that you’re struggling with a certa...

In this society we feel the need to know the answers to everything. You know how as kids we used to ask why? Well, we still do so except we’re not as annoying about it. The most difficult time I’ve had is waiting for God to answer those “why” moments, and He’s answered a few but others I’m still unsure about. One question I tend to ask a lot is why do some people go through depression in their life? What causes them to feel that way? I’ve never been in that situation where I could say I’ve been depressed but I’ve been feeling some sort of way recently that is a bit scary. I don’t know how many people will actually read this or who’s actually been in a place of depression, but recently I’ve been praying more to God and I’ve felt tremendous joy, but then suddenly I start crying out of nowhere, and it’s not tears of joy. I begin to feel pain in my spirit, and I don’t understand why that is. All I can do now is continue to pray, even through those moments of pain. I don’t know why God is ...